How Frankenstein changed my outlook

I went to Ann's son's birthday party, and it brought up some memories of my best friend. She was 17 when a car accident ended her life. Shortly after, I read Frankenstein for school. It had a huge impact on me, and those thoughts and love of this book resurfaced last weekend. I traced my finger along the books I have read in my school career, and found Frankenstein again. I started reading, and remembered why I loved this book so much during my time of grieving.

"I need not describe the feelings of those whose dearest ties are rent by that most irreparable evil, the void that presents itself to the soul, and the despair that is exhibited on the countenance. It is so long before the mind can persuade itself that she whom we saw every day and whose very existence appeared a part of our own could have departed forever- that the brightness of a beloved eye can have been extinguished and the sound of a voice so familiar and dear to the ear can be hushed, never more to be heard. These are the reflections of the first days; but when the lapse of time proves the reality of the evil, then the actual bitterness of grief commences. Yet from whom has not that rude hand rent away some dear connection? And why should I describe a sorrow which all have felt, and must feel? The time at length arrives when grief is rather an indulgence than a necessity; and the smile that plays upon the lips, although it may be deemed a sacrilege, is not banished."

A loss of a close friend, a daughter, a sister, and aunt, cannot be healed. It can be covered, and looked over for a time, but it will not leave a scar- it leaves an open wound.
On our way home from the birthday party, I was thinking about how different my life would be if she had lived. I don't think I would have met Angela, or lived with her, or joined the Church. I wouldn't have gone to Angela's graduation, and met Aaron, again. I wouldn't have had the opportunity to know Jess, Makayla, Bailey, or Ty. I may have already been through college and onto a career. I may have been following Jessica wherever she was going, because I know that she was more driven than I. I would have had a different perspective on life, and would be more liberal in my thoughts, actions, and forgiveness. I would not have known the sting of grief, and the understanding of the importance of life would have missed me by inches. I would have had different life experiences, and I would be in a very different place. I don't know how my life would have been different; I just know that she changed my life for the time that I knew her.

Lime n' Violet are my heroes

I've been listening a lot to the podcast, Lime n' Violet, www.limenviolet.com. I've been completely overtaken by yarns, hooks, dyes. If you can crochet it, or crochet with it, I've been drooling over it. I've also signed up for a spinning class at the Southeastern Animal Fiber Fair, www.saffsite.org. There's also The Yarn Nook, www.theyarnnook.com close to Enka/Candler. I love it there! I bought 1300 yards of laceweight, and the super-nice ladies wound (most of it) into a ball for me. It took over an hour, and they were so great about it! I'm working on a shawl right now, which may or may not take until the end of eternity to finish. We'll see.

I'm listening to Stephanie Meyer's Eclipse. This is probably my least favorite in the Twilight series. I seriously would like to strangle Bella. She's whiny, and I want to strangle her. I want to strangle her so much I said it twice! Still, it's a great story, and very easy to get lost in. I feel like I don't have to think too much about it (in a good way). I can let my mind wander, and daydream about a love as strong as vampirism. I have pretty much decided that I would want Aaron to change me if he were to become a vampire. But I would mainly just spend a lot of my time taking classes, crocheting, travelling. What wouldn't I do if I could live forever?!?

Other than that, school is still going... I can't wait til it's over! But I know that as soon as I graduate, I will want to do something else that will require more education.
Well, the peppers are roasting, and smelling delicious! I will go pick up Aaron, skip class, and enjoy the rest of my night.